I love my daddy

I hate it..every time I sin, every time the same sin. Its always you, always the same suspect. You sneak up, tempt me and almost every time I fall for it…You leave me feeling guilty and angry at me. I can never like you because I know who you are and what you do. Any yet when I’m weak, I let my guard down. Father in Heaven your Word has proven True. You always provide a way out. Sometimes many ways, you tell me not to fall for it. But I’m so stupid. I fall for it. Like a kid lured by a stranger with a lollipop I fall for it, then you slap me and beat me up. Strangely while I follow I enjoy the chase. Till reality sets in and I realize its you. The Enemy. I  hate you so much!! 
Father in Heaven Rescue me, take me away from this place. Cleanse my mind and my soul. Lord Jesus I’m sorry. I want to just hide behind you, hold your hand and never ran away. Your my shepherd. I love you so, I hate the way I act. Every time I fall for it its like I betray you, washing my hands like Pilate… how filthy I am….how silly my flesh is, how stupid I am to fall for it so many times. Please hold me, please walk me….Never go away hold my hand tight. Your Rod and staff comfort me you guide me on your path ways of righteousness. Yet sometimes I feel like the silly sheep who gets sidetracked and wonders off…… but you always come for me. You always find me when I’m hurt and in a corner, scarred and feeling alone. You take me up on your shoulders and take me to the rest of your flock and walk with me leading us all….I love you. Daddy keep me strong, strengthen me. You’re my strong tower. Take care of my brothers and sisters who may feel the same too, those who get side tracked on your paths, those who are tricked by the same enemy over and over again…..I feel abused, but I won’t be accused. I know what you’ve done for me. I thank your for your Grace. You help me run the race and by Your Grace its been won for you never foresake us nor leave us, nothing can separate us from your love. Thank you Daddy.